Welcome to my World

Hey wanted to start this post out just by saying sorry I haven’t been posting a lot. I’ve been super busy with work and just life in general.  I have lots planned and there will be lots of content up in the next few weeks.

Right now though, I want to talk about how my life has changed for the better since I accepted that my anxiety is not something I have to deal with alone.

I have struggled with anxiety for years, but I always thought it was something normal that all teenagers and young adults go through.  6 months ago I hit a point in my life where it became really clear I needed help. In my case, this was my physical symptoms, like feeling constantly nauseous getting way worse.

It was this point I opened up to my doctor and she diagnosed me with general anxiety disorder. Since then, I have opened up to my friends and family about my mental health, and accepted that it can get better. By this, I mean feeling nauseous all the time is not something I should have to put up with. For that reason, I started taking medication for my anxiety.

My case is a little different than others I have talked to as it is my physical symptoms that affect me the most. For that reason, I feel like I have eliminated negative symptoms and not changed myself by taking medication. Lots of people are a little uneasy when it comes to medicating themselves and I’m happy to talk more about this with anyone who has any questions.

The way I grew up I was lucky that without realizing it I learned a lot of coping mechanisms that at the time I did not realize were coping mechanisms.

I have felt so much better since I started, I am not focusing on keeping myself from throwing up or overthinking the distant future. I now feel like I have more time to focus on what is happening in the moment.

It has actually been a quite great 6 months for minus a few big events. I am in a weird way glad that I had to go through some negative things to come out stronger.

Nothing caused my anxiety it’s a part of who I am, and it always will be. That is something I am still learning to accept and is part of why it took me a while to get help.

I hope people can see from this post just how much better things can get when you acknowledge you have a problem. Yes support from my family and friends has been great but the first step I had to take was by myself, deciding I wanted to get better.

Heres to the things only getting better!